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02 srpna

Our Blood Drive

This blood drive is scheduled for October 19th, 2008. This is Grace's 8th Heavenly Birthday. We have it scheduled at the Hardesty Library from 1 to 5.
We have seen an out pouring of donations by local companies:
Here are a few who have very graciously given gifts to help support our mission

1) 2 25$ gift cards to Cheesecake factory
2)2 15$ gift cards to Children's orchard( gently used clothing)
3) Moody's jewelry~ red and crystal bowl
4) 3  5$ gift cards to Panara Bread
5) Sonic~ TONS of free food cards
6)Profile Press(My dad's company) 2 Oklahoma posters
7) 2 huge( 78$ worth) bags of fantastic items from Lazy Days( I LOVE this store)
8)Cokebury( christian book store) a family of 5 angel figure
9) Freckles. 99cents cone coupons
10) Java Dave's~ a 6 person party room
11) Great Harvest Bread~ Gift card and awesome bread!!

 
28 května

The curve ball

May 28

 

it amazes me how people come into our lives and somehow they too have had such a tragic loss. The compassion they extend is evident . The compassion they seek is equally evident. I talk to women throughout my day. I see the moms at our children's school. I sit next to them on field trips and we chat about our children. Somehow it comes up..."so how many children do you have?" There was a time when I couldn't not wait for someone to ask me that question. I had to validate to me, to my children that my baby , their sister was indeed alive.
But over time I have come to realize how truly special Grace is and forever will be.
I hold her memory so incredibly dear to my heart.
I choose who to share her with.
I want her life to matter to me and others.
I couldn't not imagine her not being ours.
Someone chastized me for talking about Grace after my so called 'required' 3 months of mourning. He felt that I should 'get over it'....I wanted to say how there was absolutely nothing to get over. She is my child. Not 'was" my child but IS my child. Now and Forever.
I love being Grace's mommy. I love being Mommy to my living children and also to Brady and Hannah.
My heart goes out to new parents. My heart just breaks for what you are going through. I hate when people say, Oh, it will get better'. 
Hmmm, better then what?
All I know is what is going on now. All I know is that if I have faith, I pray with all my heart that I will be accepted into Heaven.
I know that Grace changed me. I know that I am not the same person I was BG( before grace). So many parents say that.
My living children leave my home with a prayer ...a verbal prayer that God watches over them. I write H.O.P on their school papers, agendas, cards, notes....I want them to know that coming and going, you will be prayed for.
Grace did that. Well, God and Grace.
22 ledna

God's Grace in Grief

 We complain about the cross we bear, but don't realize it is 
preparing us   for the dip in the road that God can see and we can't.
 Whatever your cross, whatever your pain, there
    will always be sunshine, after the rain.... Perhaps you may  stumble,        
perhaps even fall; But God's always ready, to answer your 
call.... He knows every heartache, sees every tear,
a word from His lips, can calm every fear...
Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish, dawn's early light... The Savior is waiting,
somewhere above, to give you His grace, and send you His love...
11 prosince

Rain and Rainbows

Whatever your cross,
whatever your pain, 
there will always be sunshine,
after the rain ....
Perhaps you may stumble,
perhaps even fall,
But God's always ready,
To answer your call ....
He knows every heartache,
sees every tear,
A word from His lips,
can calm every fear ...
Your sorrows may linger,
throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish,
dawn's early light ....
The Savior is waiting,
somewhere above,
To give you His grace,
and send you His love ...
Whatever your cross,
whatever your pain,
"God always sends rainbows .....
after the rain ... "

 

22 listopadu

caterpillers and butterflies

"What the caterpillar calls the end of the world,
the Master calls the butterfly."

This statement was like a haunting melody that persisted in my mind and would not let go.  And during one of the lowest and darkest days of my life, the meaning of this statement came alive to me. It was like a soothing balm during this painful time. It provided me with hope, that even though it was a dark time, it could give me new life when it was over. It could be the very catalyst that could change me through this growth time. My attitude changed from "Why me Lord" to :Walk with me Lord." It is amazing what a change of attitude can do and how much lighter the load becomes whn you know that the Lord is walking with you.

I believe that our loving heavenly Father does ALLOW us to walk through the dark times, so that we can grow. That we can put our life and trust in Him. And like the caterpillar, wrapping itself in a dark, solitary cocoon and not knowing what will occur, there is a level of trust knowing that it is not an ending but a new beginning. And there comes the day, when the dark cocoon is no longer needed, for from the cocoon, an amazing transformation has taken place. And the caterpillar can no longer return to where and what is was, but now is blessed and changed into something greater than what it was.

And like the caterpillar, often the dark times in our lives is exactly what a loving heavenly Father is allowing to change and transform us. And more importantly, to change our focus from the problem we are encountering--to the ONE who has the solution all along.
From John VenturellaRainbow

Another letter from Papa John

A GRACE FILLED BLESSING

As a parent, I love being a father to my three children. However, in the role of father, there is also the primary responsibility of the financial breadwinner when raising a family. This sometimes meant having two jobs and not having all the time you wished to spend with your children. But this role, was and is still a blessing in my life.

Over the years, I have been blessed as eleven grandchilren came into my life. I always thought that fatherhood was great but
 grandfathering is pure joy. Time with the grandkids is always pure excitement and joy. There is always something to learn, some new item, some new discovery; and beyond all of this is the bonding of these children to my heart.

My daugther and son in law have five of the grandchildn, who  are living in the same town as me, less than a mile away, What a gift to have the grandkids nearby. My daughter and son in law  also have had a miscarriage with twins and one child named Grace who was born for only 2 days.  Three other grandchildren  live in California and Arizona. What a gift it is to have grandkids nearby.

One of my daughter's children is with her Heavenly Grandfather- her name is Grace. She lived within her mother for eight months and was born on October 19, 2000. My daughter, son in law and her brothers and sisters wished she could have given her our breath to help her breathe, so she could continue to live. But it did not turn out that way. Her congenital diaphragmatic hernia caused her organs to move resulting in Grace's inability to breath.

In her life within her mother's womb, and in her two day's of life, this small treasure called Grace brought family, friends and even strangers together in prayer. Both at pre-birth and the hours of her birth, these prayers comforted the family as Grace continued to sturggle for her life. Her small body could not sustain the struggle and she went to her Heavenly grandfather, one day after her birth on October 20, 2001

Our dream of course was to love this child through birthdays, school days, career days, marriage if she chose, etc. But it was not meant to be. Grace who had a hole in her diaphrahm left a hole in our hearts that only she can fill. And with her very short life comes the realization that she is out of pain and fully healed by the "grace" of her Creator. There is also great comfort in knowing that we will be together in some future time. For we were definitely "graced" by Grace.

In loving memory of Grace Dill from her grandfather.
John Venturella
21 listopadu

Coping with loss~

when a loved one dies you usually don't experience that loss just once. You're likely to relive it on the anniversary of your loved one's death. Chances are, you're also reminded of your loss each time a special date comes up such as a holiday or birthday. Even special events for strangers who died( ie., 911, vets day) can trigger that familiar pain and sadness all over again.
Speaking from experience, as we have lived thru 7 birthdays for our angel Grace, the days leading up to the date can bring forth very sad feelings as well as anger over our child not being here when many people are given perfectly healthly children whom they abuse. I, as well as many of my friends who have lost a child, remember the date our daughter was diagnosed with her CDH. We remember the month her trisomy was revealed. We remember the funeral.
Some reminders are inevitable. There will alot of 1sts. The 1st holiday after your baby died. The first painful mother's day with out your child. Personally the holidays , Thanksgiving and Christmas used to be so happy for me. But they serve as a painful reminder that a child is missing from our arms. It hurts. Please contact me at dill6@cox.net if you would like to talk....
 
23 června

Questioning God~

Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane
Clayson
asked her "How could God let something like this Happen?" (regarding
Katrina). Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response.
She said, "I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but
for
years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our
government and to get out of our lives.  And being the gentleman He is, I
believe He has calmly backed out.  How can we expect God to give us His
blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?"

Praise you in this storm

SAD ISN'T BAD~
Noone ever said being a Christian was going to be smooth saling. In fact, the Bible is pretty clear about how grief, death, mourning, saddness ....etc...all brings us closer to God. What the Bible does say is to pray without ceasing. Altho it seems like the absolute last thing you want to do in any period of grief is to pray...you should. God commands us to pray. As the song say, 'I'll praise you in this storm'~ your help comes from God~ always,
Just because you quetion your faith does not in any way mean that God is far from you. It could mean you are far from God. God is our Father, just as our earthly father would never stop loving us( well, a mature father), neither does God.. No matter how long you are gone, He will welcome you with open arms.
It is normal to question and doubt when you are hurting and feeling vulnerable. Life is joy AND sorrow.
What I have learned is God truly touches you thru other people. Comfort, Healing and lastly compassion is what can heal our hearts. That can bring us closer to healing in our sorrow and to also draw closer to our Heavenly Father.
God doesn't ask you to ignore your pain. God wants you to acknowledge it, face it and ride it  out. Some pain, like losing a child, will never go away( as some family members wish we could just forget our child). That is just not realistic, but it does get better in time.
07 května

NORMAL GRIEF

If you think you are going insane, that's normal
If all you can do is cry, that's normal
If you can't taste your food, or any appetite, that's normal
If you find yourself enjoying a funny moment then feeling guilty, that's normal
If your friends dwindle away and you feel like you have the plague, that's normal
If your blood boils when someone says, "it was God's will", that's normal
If you can't talk about it, but you can smash plates, shed paper, or kick the garbage can, that's normal
If you can share your story, your feelings, with an understanding listener, that's a beginning
If you can get a glimmer of your beloved's life rather than his or her death, that's wonderful
If you can remember your loved one with a smile, that's healing
If you find your mirrors have become windows, and you are able to reach out to other bereaved parents, that's God's Grace
 
Author Unknown 
23 prosince

A note from Papa to angel Grace

I am convinced that as a dad I am wired to try to fix problems, esp. when it involves my children.
 
It's almost like being on automatic to want the best for your child. From infancy on you are there to help, solve problems, to fix things and to love them with a love you never knew you had in you. The words 'inconditional love' have a very different meaning when your child is born
 
But there are times when you stand on the sidelines , feeling inadequate
 
When your child, loses a child, a baby concieved in love, regardless of how old the child is, this is one of those mammoth problems that cannot be fixed...just healed in time. Sometimes a very long time.
 
And it's during those times when the human father seeks help from the heavenly Father. The wisdom to understand and to believe without a shadow of doubt that this child's dying has a purpose and a plan in the Heaven's
 
 Having a parent die could never match the depth of pain and sorrow of when a child dies...and even worse when that child has never lived even beyond the 1st days of life.
 
And yet.....beyond the depth of this pain is the reassurance that someday....somewhere, we will be united again and then celebrate the new life for us all
 
Papa John Venture( lise's Dad on earth:)
26 října

INSTANT HEAVEN

     "Jer 1:4-5 says ," *I* formed you.*I* knew you BEFORE you were even born! *I* sanctified you.*I* Ordained you"
 
If you've lost a child , please read those words again. They are so powerful in knowing that GOD personally knew you. Personally knew your child. Nothing is beyond God's plan.Jeremiah was a person known fully by the Lord, set apart by God for His purpose.
     Your child has never been beyond the loving care and concern or watchful eye of the Lord. Your baby is His creation. God used you to bring into the reality of life the personhood of His child, your child.
     "WHY MY BABY?"~ as a human, I don't know. BUT I do know with certainty that God does not err.Questioning His creation, my beloved child, questions God's plan.
 
     As humans we still struggle with being submissive to God's plan and serving Him JOYFULLY until He calls us home.
There is no part of missing Grace, Brady and Hannah that I enjoy. Everyday ...with out fail, they are on my mind. Not one day goes by that I do not think of my child...the little things, day to day get me. AND it's been 6 years! But I still trust and Love God with all my heart. I know His ways are not my ways. But I have to trust that whatever plan He has for my life, including missing my baby, will further His kingdom.
19 října

Happy Birthday ~Sweet Angel~

Happy Heavenly Birthday little one! I can't believe it's been 6 years since we saw your face,since we held you, since we prayed for your healing. The pain has lessened but the hole in our hearts is forever there until we see your heavenly body once again. I know without a doubt you are gently held in His arms until I can take over. Your brothers and sisters love and miss you, as do daddy and I
XOMommy
17 října

Coping w/ infant death

Whatever we do, going or not going to our childrens graves, sleeping with one of their toys or closing a door to their rooms- has only to be what we each need , what we require to make it thru each day with out them.There is no other yardstick.
 
There are 5 stages of grief according to Elizabeth Kubler-Ross.
Denial and isolation. How could this have happened to my child when there are drug addicts having healthy babies every day. When babies are left at hospitals.
The 2nd is anger. Who should I be angry at?God? I can't be angry at He who has my child. He blessed our family with the greatest gift: Grace. I know she is in His warm arms. Doubting God's plan in my life, means I do not trust His decisions. There wasn't any anger I could comtemplate that could bring my child back.
There's a depression stage. We talked. Alot. Mark allowed me to grieve. We yelled. We cried. We finally agreed that we had been thru hell. Yet, we refused to stay there. Mark's motto was 'haven't we been thru enough?How important is this arguement compared to the death of our child?'
This is now our family creed.
The last stage is acceptence.
It is not an adequate word. Neither is resignation.
(some adapted from the new book called Saving Grace)
05 srpna

The Road to Emmaus

The Road to Emmaus~( the edited version )
 
       A friend of my earthly Father's went to Jerusalem and took this photo below.
This is the road that Jesus walked down w/ 2 grief stricken men mourning His death.
I like the photo because it doesn't show the end. It's hidden end is still yet to be seen
Thank you so much Kay
Lise ,Mark and baby Emmie
 
07 července

Embryo Adoption

     Back in Oct 03, Mark and I decided to pursue IVF in an atempt to concieve one more child. His reasoning was that he didn't want either of us to look back years from now and regret anything( so far we have been fortunate). We chose The Sher Insitute at www.Haveababy.com and went with Dr. Peter Alhering and his nurse Mary. They were WONDERFUL to us and helped us every step of the way. We had 7 embryos that were mature. We transfered 3( which became our twins: Brady David and Hannah Marie). We had 4 left over and decided to freeze them , not sure what to do with them. Sadly our twins died but we joyfully concieved Emmaus Clare. Listening to a radio station one day I heard about Embryo adoption. After much much much thought and prayer, we donated our embryos to Nightlight Snowflakes( because no 2 are alike) .
     Within a couple weeks a couple sent us their bio and we loved them from the moment we laid eyes on them. They seemed like perfect parents to adopt our babies. They adopted all 4: the quads to Brady and Hannah. We are so excited for them and pray that their dreams of a life with children are complete.
    
09 června

Grace

Grace with angels in the sky.
Has learned to smile she doesn't cry.
 For God is shining on her heart,
To blossom gifts He did impart.
 
And gentle Angels in grand repose,
 Look for a chance to hold her close.
 As tiny hands and tiny feet,
Are oh so cute, and oh so sweet.
 
She was God's loving gift to earth,
As caring hearts received her birth.
prayers were heard and she was send,
She was His loving kind inend.
 
Earth the place were sorrows gather,
So God showed care in the whole matter.
Grace will never witness pain,
In Heaven's arms she will remain.
 
She is waiting now for mom and dad,
And sister,brothers and she'll be glad.
When all of them will be complete,
Around God's throne in joy they'll meet.
 
Little blossom in the sky,
 Is kept so safe, we'll meet on high.
sorrows then for good will cease,
But even now, we have His peace.
 
                                                                                By:Evy M Boye

Grace bear ministry

Grace's Bear Ministry
     We took over the Angel Bear Minsitry, created by Connie after the death of her daughter Madison, in a way to help other parents cope with the overwhelming  feelings of grief and try to offer support. We renamed it The Bear-ers of Grace because of the donated bears we bring to Floral Haven Funeral Home in Tulsa, Oklahoma. We are not trained professionals, but we simply make ourselves available to you as understanding listeners, provide helpful resources, encourage you through our own experiences and to be available as a prayer partner.
     The bear you received today was donated by someone who had the desire to bring comfort to you. Some of them have experienced the loss of a child: some have not. But what binds us together is our commitment to the Lord~
     Our foundation verse is from the 2nd book of Corinthians 1:3-4
     Praise be to God and father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of Compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort those in any trouble witht he comfort we ourselves have received from God
    
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When God calls little chldren Home~

When God calls Little Children Home~
When God calls little children home to dwell with Him above
We mortals sometimes question the wisdom of His Love
For no heartache compares with the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild
Prehaps God tires of calling the aged to His fold
So He picks a little rosebud before it can grow old
God knows how much we need them, so He takes but a few
To make the land of Heaven more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult, still somehow we must try
The saddest word mankind knows will always be 'goodbye'
So when a little child departs, we who are left behind must realize God loves children...
Angels are hard to find
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